When you lose all....

Cards on the table, you lose.
face wiped clean of smiles.
eyes washed with gallons of tears.
road vacant, no friend for miles.

walk, as if thats all you know.
hang your head, dont look up.
you are dreaming if you hear any voice.
walk, keep on walking, dont stop.

you are a fallen child of the game.
cursed! and no powers at all.
silence and loneliness is all you get.
close your eyes, enjoy the free fall.

Scarry story ..part 1

I am afraid…

I live in a world ruled by people with strange perceptions of me…
They are looking for a different me IN me….
They wont take NO for an answer… I am to say YES all the time.
I am afraid …I’ll snap.. I’ll break into pieces..

They force the idea of society on me….
And they want me to accept everything they say blindly…
Society opposed to human race…. Religion opposing Faith…
I am afraid… I’ll never accept… I’ll never be convinced.

In case I stand here alone for a bit longer… I’ll be accused of individuality..
That I put myself above everyone-else… above all…
That I need to put general welfare above mine will be the outcry..
I am afraid…. I’ll never give in… I’ll always stand alone…

For all the things I learnt in the past… Nothing sticks to memory…
Nothing pops out of the picture and says they are right…
But they insist that there “contradictory” regulations are for the best…
I am afraid…. I’ll never agree…. I’ll always be me…

A ... hmmmm.... not sure wht I can call it.

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits …

How do you make the journey end in the joy…

Do you always know the way to the shore…

Or the ocean moves towards you to embrace…

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits ….

How do you know oh river…that the world won’t be able to stop you…

From finishing the journey you started…

Do you ever doubt that the ocean may not accept your love….

That your love will not be returned many folds…

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits ….

How do you know oh river… that seasons will come and go…

That they may kill you but not change your path.. your will..

That no matter how hard the sun be on you… you wont relent…

That the rains will always be on their way to help you reborn…

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits …

How do you know oh river… where your love is..

Is there a path to follow, that the stars draw.

Or you follow the song in your heart….

Or is it that you have eyes that can see your love from far off…

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits …

How do you know oh river…that the dry land will give way…

To the ever welling ocean of love and joy…

That your life will be enriched with the calm of the sea…

That the music of the waves will make you dance in step with your beloved….

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits ….

How do you know oh river… that your story will be never ending…

That ages will pass without changing even a word of this song..

That the world will stand witness the grand union… and applaud.

That no matter how old you get, you will be loved the same…

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits...

How do you know oh river… or did someone ever teach you…

To love like this without any expectations and so simply…

To hold nothing important but the ocean and his embrace…

To survive every pain the world inflicts and never turn away…

How do you know oh river… where the ocean awaits ….

ps: say something mean..:D

My soulmate....

I saw a movie.

Something about soulmates… about people finding the one meant for you in this whole wide world… eventually the pieces of the puzzle falling into the right places.

I liked it… and now think… what an awesome feeling that must be.. to find a special Someone.. who is meant for you…. Like an only right answer to a multiple choice Question..

I am writing this in a strangely unnerving and satisfying mood… a song of my choice playing… the lyrics talking about the heart blossoming on someone’s arrival.. that special touch feeling like spring in autumn… strangely soothing.

I make a promise to myself… I’ll find happiness of this kind… someday I’ll be deeply madly in love…. Someday I’ll be very sure that the one I am holding holds the promise of a lifetime of happiness for me.

You show me the love I’ve never seen..

You are like an angel from my sweetest dream..

COME SOON… am waiting.

I will never change.... thats what i want to believe.... but time has a strange way of changing shape of everything.... I mean look at the beautiful Grand canyon... And no.. I am not talking abt being a CANYON... or being GRAND.... I just... hmmm.. no idea...

Hi.. Like I said earlier...when? never mind... Like I said.. I am starting out.... where? Never mind... If you are interested in asking anymore Questions.. Never mind....

So heyllo all.. I am well a regular irregular person.... Ladki/female/kanya.... aadi..itayadi...
name: never mind..Cause its one of the most uninteresting, uncaptivating kindda names you'll ever come across..... Now wait a minute.. Its a nice name.. only I dont think the name in itself stands out.

Now a more IMP type Question: why am I here..... dunno...
what Am I gonna do here....Dunno....
and IF you are still interested enough in asking anymore Questions..... what the hells wrong wid you??

So I'll meet you here... If again IF.. You ever show up.....
I'll keep tapping the window/screen/monitor.. and what you have..... cause I'll be around.... I am starting out... :)